Perhaps you will choose to go into unconsciousness to
Cope and suppress the deeply rooted painful emotions
that cause your emotional and physical paralysis.

Eventually you may realize that there is a thin veil
between the dark stuck painful place and love and light
the key to getting through this doorway into a brighter place
is as simple as just choosing to wake up in your dreaming.

Floating across the shimmering pond
Buoyant in her being
She is a Swan

Rising above the cool wetness of what is
Lifted up on a feathery cushion of light
An unseen force appears to propel her effortlessly across the water
Pushing along the underneath with nimble feet kicked by lean legs

Neck tall, proud tranquil gaze filled with passionate purpose
Her presence is gentle and kind

A mysterious, sensual force shines from her eyes
I feel it inside my heart and I long to her hold close again
Feeling the silent joy inside

Mystical old world soul
Your light shines across the Siberian prairie
Radiant and elegant a wondrous northern light!

Lifted out of the hardships of this life,
Smiling with a deep sense of knowing.
Strong as a lioness when needed
Your feminine essence is as soft as the petals of a delicate rose
Colorful and in full bloom,
Blushing sweetly on your tender cheek.

Womanhood has a right to be proud of you!
Generations before have struggled and sacrificed everything.
Feel grateful for their lives!
They created the gift that is you.
Your path is to care and share who you are.
Mother, Sister, Daughter together
Never alone in this life, their spirit is always with you.

Embodied as the gift of love and loyalty
Given only to the rightful honor of a true loving Gentleman
Never settling for less than true love and commitment.
Partnership with you is a prize of a living jewel!
Precious and sacred joined together unified as the One.

Russian Beauty you are the Spirit of Mother Russia!
Bearing children of the Motherland.
Your light will shine on to future generations
Through the gift of creating loving family
Long after no one remembers your name.

I let myself get lost in the crowd
Always lost and always found

Never touching the floor
Rooted to the earth

Walking through the hologram of light
People are clouds
Walls are nothing

Spreading love
Watching the watcher

I let myself dissolve into a morning dew
A drop on a leaf welling up growing bigger and heavier
The leaf droops down further nearly touching the ground
Awareness, expanding, growing, breathing, forming new limits
Expanding, contracting, moving inward and outward
Pulsating droplet ready to fall, ready to be swallowed by the ground
Falling, falling, deeper, deeper,
The bubble drops, explodes and goes back to the life energy from where it came
Disappearing into the microcosmic void, a mere droplet
Dew, how I love you!
Shining bright, reflecting light, glistening in the sun
A jewel radiant and transparent filled with space and light
There are an endless number of these
Yet none are the same
What magnificence to behold!
To witness just one, of the one, as one
No matter the number it still comes back to one and only one
There is still time to see the droplet fall
Hanging onto the texture of the leaf by the pressure of atmosphere
The very molecules of its presence
This tiny bead is made up of all existence
Inside and outside it makes on difference to see which one
This drop is, there is nothing to know about it
To identify with a droplet may seem absurd
Though no more absurd then to be attached to any inanimate or animate object
These “things” we value are a trick we play on each other
Making it more difficult to see that there is no value that we do not create
How liberating to see the bondage to Thingism
To look toward a single drop of water on a tender green leaf
To see the glory and grace of all this that there is
As it is, as life, before, below and above, meeting as one
In this golden misty morning

Standing on the porch tonight
Looking down at the wet green ground below
I thought my eyes were going bad
The earth was morphing, moving and dancing
I caught what I perceived was a true glimpse of ever present manifestation
Interconnected force of nature was swirling in light
Magnificent wholeness was breathing in and out
Appearing as one moment of universal creation
My eyes were clear
I could see the trees and the ground pulsating with life in unison

The moon was nearly full
On this magical oddly warm autumn night
Looking at the ground
I was blessed with fresh clear vision
Finally seeing what is always already happening
Overwhelmed with gratitude
I walked over to the hundred year old mighty pine
Just to see if what I was sensing was a mirage
Touching it I connected to the strength of its tree-ness
Formless, I was immediately pulled into the trunk
Through the bark
I shot up past the branches to the tip top
Spreading out I went down to the roots
Surging together as one energy
Being one as a tree, not two forms, just one not two or three
The mighty trunk was eight feet around and still growing
I was growing with it in shape and wisdom
Energy exploded hundreds of feel tall and yards deep
I stood transfixed holding on to the power of existence

Not for one moment did I feel like the “I” mattered
There was no reference point to point to
Or from

I had finally done it
I disappeared
And it felt really good

Where is my Teacher?
I was too shy to ask him why?
Too shy to find my own way home

Where is my Teacher?
I tried to do my practice the best I could
But failed so many times to do it right.

Where is my Teacher?
I know my enlightenment is coming soon
But I can’t do it without him.

Where is my Teacher?
He loves me and accepts me unconditionally
The way my parents never could

Where is my Teacher?
He is in my guts rooted in the gunk of the organs
Telling me more detailed instructions than a super computer

Where is my Teacher?
Hiding behind the façade of an expert
Peering out from a blind iron mask

Where is my Teacher?
Sitting on a golden pillow of light
Hovering above the ground
Carefully planning more exercises

Where is my Teacher?
My Teacher is everything that has ever been done to me
My Teacher is everything that I’ve ever done
My Teacher is everything that is perceived in this world
My Teacher is everything that is not perceived in this world
My concept of Teacher is a self imposed barrier
To realizing the unknowable brilliance that is already, always manifest.

You drove your way to my heart
I left the keys on the counter
You took the top down and went for a ride

Go ahead
Tell yourself that it’s time to go
Push away that which you love
Find a clever reason not to feel the intensity
Discover the truth of losing yourself in the other
Listen to voice that is drowning in the fear of your fear
Feel how scary it is the abandon your insecurities
In favor of love

Abandonment is a visitor that doesn’t come uninvited
What good does it do to tell yourself that this doesn’t matter?
It really doesn’t, does it?
In the end everything fades away
The evening sun comes home
Bowing beyond the horizon

Try to imagine yourself standing in the rain as an old person
Standing there with your lover beside you
Holding the umbrella overhead
Are we together as we?
Or are you alone and cold with big heavy bags?

Feel the beauty in this moment
This summer of love
Innocence and experience
Learning and touching
Sharing and feeling
It was supposed to be a light fling
But it surprised both of us

Now we have a lot of explaining to do
Shifting deeper into the present
Feeling the warm love of this embrace
Intertwined in ecstasy
Exploring each other with sensualist secrets
We are each others lover

No words to tell
No voice to speak
Sighs and breaths of passion
Tears of joy
Shaky legs tell all
Trembling with the after murmurs

When the time comes
We will say good bye
Pretending that we are making no promises
Precious kisses seem to last forever
But soon they will be gone
Embracing the impermanence of life
This doesn’t mean that we won’t see each other again
But let’s not drive each other crazy from afar

Remaining open to change
Not living ahead
We can enjoy the moment
The moment that is now

Frustrated in the moment knowing the hurt will come soon
I raise the stakes giving myself over fully
Choosing to surrender to this special moment
To you special woman
The soul of which I have touched
Whose soul has touched me

I thank you for your gift
The gift of you
You are beautiful
I love you
Thank you

Drifting into mutual solitude
Dancing the night away
Go ahead and drink the way you forgot how to
Steal the freedom that you gave away
but never left

When I look at you
I see the world in a brighter way
The totality of togetherness is silky smooth
Easy and Dreamy

The envelope of the universe tears itself open to be in our midst
Just knowing
Just being

Walking through automatic doors
Riding invisible buses
No impediment protests our journey
Sweeping good currents
Yields into harmonious flow

We have a closeness that isn’t too close
It is a real surreal calm
We know that life can be hard
But we are not scared
Right now it is simple
Real and without illusion
Trusting, relaxing into confidence
It is what a nurturing intimate relationship should feel like

A monochrome foreign film
A European romance
A story of passion where life is beautiful, stylish and easy
With a film noir twist and a bitter sweet ending

Knowing that this may soon be over
Expectations and plans are suspended
This is the summer of love
Unabashed lust lets loose with a nighttime display of light
Yesterday I wondered if I would get too attached and feel pain?
Today I don’t care because my heart is open
I can’t be bothered to wrap it in barbed wire anymore
The barbs protect from the outside but hurt on the inside
I’m a humanitarian and philanthropist giving away my emotional wealth
If someone wants to take it
Then they must need it more than I
And I have plenty to give
So I give it away

Kissing your body slowly from head to toe
I paint and sculpt you with my hands and lips
Stopping each moment to taste your goodness
White velvet skin, sugar frosted with freckles
I sprinkle a galaxy of kisses on your body
Pink nipples discreetly request wet mouth
I see your face in erotic shadows
Your torso riding above mine in rhythm
Holding your hips, your hands grasp the wall
Dancing together in tantric ecstasy
Insides quake and explode in unison
We pleasure each other in harmonic crescendo
Dying a little death from the sensuality
Diving deep into the mattress
Heavy and wet we rest
What is left is a satisfied sleeping smile
Nestled in your curly golden locks
Eyes closed and dreaming

You are asleep in the bedroom and I am here swirling in words
Spinning and dancing images, feelings and sound
Melting in the precious embers of our glow
Getting it all down before I join you in restful sleep

Somewhere between the dark and light highlights of your hair

Is the truth of your being