Know that I am here
And I care about you

I know that you know
that I know
that you care

Even though
We may not be meeting each other
In this moment

Caring is happening
For both of us

Know there is silence in the noise

Hear it

Know that time doesn’t really exist

Experience it

Know that I am thinking of you

Feel it

Know that there is only one heart

Longing to meet itself

I was going to send you a poem today
Because of the dance we shared last night
Because my body ached for you at the core

waking up in the early hours of the morning
unable to sleep without the gentle release
of personal self gratification

I had a poem ready to send earlier
but after I finished preparing it
I decided not to send it
and deleted the whole thing

why?

Because of ego

the monster of the depths that will ruin us
I figured I’d just be sending it to that place
that will simply devour and burp
leaving nothing
but a feeling of powerlessness inside

So I didn’t send the romantic tribute
to your womanhood and beauty

but I did write this
in it you can feel the connection
in the heart, body and aching soul

I am quite certain that
this is just a game to you
That I’m not the only player on your chess board

so instead of preparing for failure
I’ll just wander off a winner
keeping on the path
to nowhere
really fast

Up in the air
Unwinding
in the familiar place
that is new

Waiting
wondering
wanting to feel you in my arms

tell me you are thinking of me
the way I am thinking of you

tell me that I’m not alone
in this feeling of wondering
and wanting to be home

In this new delightful place
with you
in my arms

You want answers?
Forget it!

There is no one here who can help
you

you
can’t even help
you
with this perplexing dilemma
so what makes
you
think that I can help
you

It’s not about
you
it’s about
you
and
you
and
you
and
You

Do you see a pattern emerging?

All the while you think of ways to help
you
blaming other people who bug
you
trying to escape the craziness of
you
but no matter how hard
you
try
to drop thoughts
practice a practice
and get clear
you
are still left with
you

you
think
you
know?
do
you?

aren’t
you
regulary caught up
self absorbed
scared
confused
out of control
or perhaps
calm cool
and absolutely certain

Do
you
see a pattern here?

Remember the story of
You?

the one
you
Tell
you
and everyone else
continuously
always
in your head
jibbering and jabbering

What if I told
You

its just a story?

Would that make
you
mad?

would
you
disagree?

Haven’t
you
been making
you
up?

since
you
can remember?

Just because other people tell
you
that
you
is true

doesn’t mean
you
are

do
you
believe everything
you
hear?

I don’t

most of what people say is
made up bullshit

but that’s ok
you
know what to expect

Don’t say I didn’t warn
you

people
and everything they
are
Do
and say
is made up

HEY YOU!!! TRY THIS ->

Do with the story of
you
what a well behaved
hunting hound does with a ball

DROP IT!
LEAVE IT!

Step away from the story
of
you

no need to run
or hide
or seek

because in the end

YOU
are still HERE!

Like I said
it doesn’t matter

you
is still happening

pretty scary huh? LOL

get it?
just drop
the vitally important
mission critical
made up version of
you

that’s it
the big secret of the sages of all ages

you
should pay me big money for this
therapeutic dialogical healing service
I’m giving
you
curing
you
of
you

because it doesn’t matter

so why not?

you
think it’s absolutely mission critical to be
You

But is this true?

Could this be the secret in this mysterious story plot of
you
that keeps
you
running scared of
you

What are
you
waiting for?

Drop the story of
you

Try it now

because it doesn’t matter if
you
Do

or if
you
don’t

Mystical old world soul
Your light shines across the Siberian prairie
Radiant and elegant a wondrous northern light!

Lifted out of the hardships of this life,
Smiling with a deep sense of knowing.
Strong as a lioness when needed
Your feminine essence is as soft as the petals of a delicate rose
Colorful and in full bloom,
Blushing sweetly on your tender cheek.

Womanhood has a right to be proud of you!
Generations before have struggled and sacrificed everything.
Feel grateful for their lives!
They created the gift that is you.
Your path is to care and share who you are.
Mother, Sister, Daughter together
Never alone in this life, their spirit is always with you.

Embodied as the gift of love and loyalty
Given only to the rightful honor of a true loving Gentleman
Never settling for less than true love and commitment.
Partnership with you is a prize of a living jewel!
Precious and sacred joined together unified as the One.

Russian Beauty you are the Spirit of Mother Russia!
Bearing children of the Motherland.
Your light will shine on to future generations
Through the gift of creating loving family
Long after no one remembers your name.

Softly I speak to you
In my heart
You’re not here
But you’re here
Losing confidence in my ability to maintain perspective
I arrive at a new understanding of not knowing
Completely liberated from certainty
Or at least the momentary suspension of the concept
My ability to regain clarity from a state of confusion seems infinite
Which leads me to believe that perhaps there is infinite clarity everywhere
Waiting patiently all the time, timelessly
Just on the other side of the imagined other side
Whatever form that may take
It’s a great reassurance to know that in not knowing there is knowing
Clearly this is an advantage
To winning
The game
With no rules
The one where no one gets hurt

I wish

There is really nothing I can do to help you.

Except to remind you that you’re already here
And that no one is doing any of this “me-ing”!

It’s just what’s happening!
Beautiful and pointless
Divine, ecstatic and utterly simple!

I could fall in love with you
those words just fell out of my mouth
with a desire to express the energy I feel when I’m with you

It wasn’t easy to say
For a moment
Until they came out
Then it was really easy
A feeling of opening happened
A trusting of love

I can’t control if you will or won’t reciprocate
Whether you are interested or willing
Not knowing if you are worthy or if you think I am
Trusting that I don’t know if I can trust you
I say it anyway
And I mean it

You said I might be the next bull in your China shop
Are you really that fragile?
Or are you protecting something even more delicate than fine bone China?
What could that be?
Your heart?
A story?
The truth?
A lie?

It doesn’t matter
To me
This me that you are trying to figure out
I don’t care who I am
It doesn’t matter
Because I’m still here as I am

Feeling your heart close to mine
Seems to matter in a way that other things haven’t
In a long time

I’d say that it’s scary
But I’d be lying to myself and to you
It feels fantastic!
As I fall asleep with the warm glow of you in my heart
Feeling genuinely alive

Dancing with you last night
My feet moved magically under legs

Shadows came right up out of the floor
Lifting us higher and higher
To help us touch the sky

Developing sensual physical communication
Playing with subtle forces of divine light
There was unification of hearts and minds
Spinning and whirling in a sea of graceful fluidity

The night melted away
Timelessly transformed
Romance dance

I can still feel you in my arms
Folded deep beside me
Protected by my soul

Fingertips touching lightly
Looking into your eyes
When you smile that gentle knowing smile
I dissolve into the ocean of you